I know where you at, cause I been there before. Feelin like you ain’t shit, you take shit, takin shit kicks on the floor. If you’re like me you’re maybe even wondering what the fuck’s life for, and is it worth it. I promise you I’d move heaven and earth if, you could just cut the weak shit. But I know you can’t yet, like I said I know where you sittin at. I know how much it hurts but it’s not the hurt I’m spittin at. I’m talkin to you hayhay, you gotta get up and get over. It’s a little every day like how when you wake up you know you’re, alive, well I’m sayin start livin. Nobody ever won nothin by givin up and givin in. So I hear you, and I’m hear for you, you let me know if you ever need a boost. But don’t come to me with any pussy weak shit. I’m not gonna deal with regression and your depression, it feeds it. I hope you read this
Show me the path that leads us home, that takes us to where we want to go. I’m losing you the farther we go down this road. I keep trying to turn back but I can’t find the way back home. I just want to take you home
Posting this as a photoset. This man is incredible, I hope I can be like him someday :)
God bless this man.
:( May he rest in peace.
I hope to be half this man someday
I’m feelin’ down tonight, you gotta be kidding me. Crackin through my core like I got dropped from the rooftop, but I can’t find the reasons, they’ve washed away like raindrops. Make it stop, I need a reminder, bout the good friends I got and how my girl is on fire, my head just keeps spinnin and the good thoughts roll right off, it’s pullin my down like a whirlpool and I just want it to stop.
It’s been a while since I’ve been here, man I thought I’d beaten this weak crap. Thought I’d kicked out the loneliness and taken my life back. But now there’s so much comin at me and I’m tryin hard to cope. Tryin to remember how I got back up and I’m dope, but I got this dark side, and he scares the crap outta me. Holds up a mirror but it shows all the self doubt in me. I push him away the mirror falls and I shatter, a million pieces of me and they couldn’t feel any badder.
I’m making this out to be worse but I’m tryin to preempt it, tryna get a jump on the shadow me that sent it. Not losin another summer to this sad pathetic dumb shit. For me depression’s like chicken pox, I can only get it once bitch.
Even now I can feel the bottom of the barrel beneath my feet. I’ve somehow spent myself again but I can’t afford to eat. How I wind up in these places, taking angry swings at caring faces, sidestepping warm embraces, maybe that’s why I can’t win races. I feel like I’m going it alone as I shit on my supporters. I don’t have the endurance, coach, and it’s the end of the fourth quarter. I’m ready for some bench cause I can’t start fucking up now. I’m tryin to stay strong but my mental walls are wearing down
“fuck you” you said. I’m just like every body else? When did that change? I’ll tell you- when I decided you could go to hell. Cause honestly for so long, I put you so far ahead of me, but I quit. Cause you never really gave a shit, you went through the motions, and I’m so sick if it. Sick of you feeding off my attentions, my love, but never giving nothing back, fuck over that I’m above. Seriously, if you’re falling apart, if you’ve got a broken heart, if you just want another start, it’s always been me that you came to. But I’m just a game to you. And it’s such a shame you blew, all of that, I’m sick of this crap, I’m turning my back and this time I’m not coming back.
So basically it was the greatest thing to ever happen, imagine, a man like you or me trudgin along, feet draggin, whips crackin on his back as he cries from all the pain that he’s havin. But he doesn’t give up, no, cause he’s the greatest good, takin the sin of the world on his cross like only the Son of God could. Bent double, weak and bleeding, we kept on with the sinful lives we were living. The world didn’t stop, time didn’t stand still, but Jesus Christ gave us a way to break free from hell. He died for us, on that cross on that hill. He died for us because he loved and he cared. We didn’t and don’t deserve it, but the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
We put you on the cross, and you loved us still. I cannot comprehend it, but must leave it to your perfect will. So often when I set myself, a task to bring me nearer, to your light I succumb again to the fear that waits here, in my heart, watching lurking planning, prepared to tear down my good before it starts. But I trust in you, and to you I do commend my soul. Lord only with your love and guidance can I make it through my struggles whole
Lost and confused, my dreams gets so abused
In cased you haven’t heard, I kick them to the curb
I give then up so quickly cause I don’t know what I want to be
Why can’t anybody see that that is all that’s wrong with me
I know wishing I was perfect isn’t going to come true, but I’m gonna keep it up cause I’ve got nothing better to do
I’m like a wave, cause the higher I get the harder I crash. Every time I get my hopes up I watch them get dashed. Smiles shatter and scatter like shards of smashed glass. I wish I still believed that these feelings would pass.
I’m so sick and tired of feeling sick and tired. Why can’t every night be Saturday night, why can’t every night take me higher? Why can’t I spiral upward not downward? Why the fuck do I care? Why does it always surprise me when I remember that life isn’t fair?
Sometimes I hate the world, and I think I deserve so much from it. It gives me a little of what I want, then covers everything in shit. There’s always something in my way, there’s always something in between. I always get pushed right back down, and I hate the way it always seems
so unfair, so unfair to just be me. and the world won’t care, but sometimes I just wish I was free
Here I feel trapped, and there’s nothing I can do. I really don’t want to screw this up but I don’t know what to do. All the miles that seperate, some days they don’t mean anything. But when I don’t feel so great, that distance it means everything.
so come on, come on down, stay with me for a while. I say fuck the world, I just want to really smile
Don’t stop there, don’t let the bullshit hold you down. I don’t care, I get happier when you’re around. I need some space, but I need you right inside with me. It upsets me that you care, care that somebody might see
I don’t want to care no more, what the world thinks of me. cause no matter what the world thinks, it’s just the world and I’m just me
So tell me when a decision’s reached, about how it’s gonna go. Baby it’s important to me so hurry up and let me know
sometimes caring fucking sucks, but don’t ask me what I mean. If you could understand you already would, I’m not gonna try and help you see.
distance sucks so bad, even when I forget about it. Cause when I really really want you here, most of the time I’m left alone and feeling like shit.
